Job 42:5
“I have heard of You
by the hearing of the ear,
But now my eye sees You.
Therefore I abhor myself,
And repent in dust and ashes.”
Job 9:33
“Nor is there any
mediator between us,
Who may lay his hand on us both.”
It was in this moment that I really came to realize that no matter what we go through in life, no matter the hardships, and the number of questions that come with them. When we meet God, our response will be I repent. No one thinks they “deserve” to bury their children, no one thinks they “deserve” to have loved ones die suddenly and prematurely, no one looks at themselves and concludes that they “deserve” the hardships of life that they are going through. Our prayer is that it never happens to us, and when it’s in the horizon, that God saves us from it. And when it does happen, while we are in the midst of pain that cannot be described, we cannot understand how or why this is happening/happened to us, and this leaves us with more questions than answers.
But at the end of the day,
we will realize like Job that “we have uttered what we did not understand, things
too wonderful for us, which we did not know.” And we will repent, despite our pain
and suffering.
Realization is not the
same as understanding though, but I have accepted that these are things too
wonderful for me to understand, and I have made peace with it.
Now to the second
verse.
This verse emphasizes
something that I have always thought before now when reading the book of Job,
and it’s that Job needed a mediator to stand before God for him, someone to
draw a line for humanity, someone to plead our case and pray for us. Maybe if
there was someone there to stay the mouth of the accuser, so that the effects his
accusations were limited. Maybe Job’s sufferings would not have been as intense.
And this leads me to Peter’s temptation.
And the Lord
said, “Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as
wheat. But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail;
and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren.” Luke
22:31-32
This is Satan again,
asking for a Child of God to sift. And even though we don’t have details of the
encounter where Satan asked for Peter, when we look into the process of sifting
wheat in Jesus’s time, you’ll discover that it was a very rigorous process. Now,
when I compare what Job went through with what Peter went through (His denial
of Jesus) it doesn’t seem commensurate. But
then I remember one great factor that differentiates them both.
Jesus said “But I
have prayed for you”.
Jesus praying for us makes all the difference in our sifting. Find
rest in this.